Monthly Archives: February 2019

Why Am I Doing This?

Posted on February 28, 2019 by vftc11

Good question. There is so much of what I’m calling “dialog” going on in my head at any one time, it’s hard not to have some of it come bursting forth in some fashion. And I want to be able … Continue reading →

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And Here We Are…

Posted on February 27, 2019 by vftc11

I seem to have survived another birthday…another year older. Am I wiser? I’m not aware of any palpable increase in “wisdom.” Quite the contrary – I’m feeling pretty stupid. I’m just tired.  Of everything. Of the world. Of the people. … Continue reading →

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Zero

Posted on February 25, 2019 by vftc11

A milestone today. My birthday. Whoop-dee-fucking-doo. And this is a milestone. I am not going to say what milestone it is – suffice it to say, that as you get older, each one takes on a deeper significance. You start … Continue reading →

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Quiet

Posted on February 22, 2019 by vftc11

I really don’t like feeling like this. Like I am ready to explode – shatter into a million pieces. My pulse is racing. I feel afraid…unsure of what to say or do next. My head is spinning. I want to … Continue reading →

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A Vicious Cycle

Posted on February 21, 2019 by vftc11

What is it they say…“The definition of insanity is repeating the same actions and expecting a different result”? If that’s true, then we’re all crazy. LIFE is repeating the same actions (sleep, get up, shower, eat breakfast, go to work/school/wherever, … Continue reading →

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Five

Posted on February 20, 2019 by vftc11

Have you ever felt an exhaustion so complete that you couldn’t imagine going on with living? I’m having that feeling more and more these days. Am I psyching myself out? Probably. How did I get this far off the path? I … Continue reading →

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A Change

Posted on February 19, 2019 by vftc11

Six days. Six days to go until I reach a milestone that I am…well… unsure of. We all go through this. Some of us have an easier time of it than others. Why am I feeling like this? It’s unsettling, to put … Continue reading →

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Winter’s Here

Posted on February 11, 2019 by vftc11

I hate the snow. I hate how it disrupts lives, creates confusion, and chills humanity to the bone. When I find that I can’t get around to do even the most simple tasks, I get very frustrated. And depressed. Sure, … Continue reading →

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The Roller Coaster Never Stops

Posted on February 1, 2019 by vftc11

It’s another day where I feel like I want to jump out of my skin. I hate these days. The mental noise is deafening. I want it to STOP. It’s been 11 year this August since I was laid off … Continue reading →

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