I seem to have survived another birthday…another year older.

Am I wiser? I’m not aware of any palpable increase in “wisdom.” Quite the contrary – I’m feeling pretty stupid.

I’m just tired.  Of everything. Of the world. Of the people. Of myself. Of being in pain. Of dealing with depression. Of feeling low energy. Of all of it.

I just want to scream. I can’t concentrate. It’s next to impossible to focus. I see the darkness is approaching on the horizon, pursuing me.

I feel so alone and sad.

I want to go away and hide…be away from everything that torments me.

My heart is racing.

What am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to be?

The darkness closes in around me.

Does anyone give a shit?

Is anyone out there?