Friday.

One of the more sought-after days of the week.

Where did my energy go?

My focus?

My ability to stay awake without caffeine and other stimulants?

Friday mornings – for me – are an overwhelming feeling of wanting to crawl back into bed and go to sleep.

But the world doesn’t work that way.

Every time I stop to think or contemplate something, I NOD OFF!!

I FUCKING FALL ASLEEP!

I used to be more “together”…at least, it felt like I was…I thought I was…

I’m lost.

I feel less than a human.

I feel stupid – like I am missing something.

The “fight” inside me has dwindled to such a low level – I’m using every bit of energy I have just to survive the day. A lot of people don’t understand that.

Thanks for listening.