I need to make some.

It’s getting harder and harder to do things – like walk – and I am rapidly losing the energy to even give a damn.

My pulse rate quickens when I contemplate how much I have to do.

When I close my eyes (even for a split second) I fall asleep.

What is the matter with me?

I can’t focus when “life” is going on around me in all of it’s loud and annoying glory. And when I can’t concentrate, and my attention jumps from one stimuli to the next, it takes energy…mental energy. Something I feel in short supply of at the moment. I put on my headphones and try to tune out the din.

It helps, but I wish it was more.