Author Archives: vftc11

I’m sad My heart is heavy and dark I weep for humanity’s suffering I’m finding it hard to see reasons to keep going The pain is constant What can be done? It’s so dark and cold I want to scream… … Continue reading →

It comes again I am enveloped in a dense cloud, heavy with the tears of the suffering This is not right How have I so sinned as to bring this upon myself? I feel what’s left of my soul being … Continue reading →

The problem with my mind is that I can have some really deep, meaningful, paradigm-shifting insights over the course of the day that I have this incredibly strong urge to immediately capture so it doesn’t disappear into the ether. But, … Continue reading →

This is getting bad. I’ve been tired before – drifting-off tired. – chin-on-the-chest tired… – can’t-stop-yawning tired… – unable-to-focus tired… – ??? tired… It’s getting more and more obvious to me that I have to do…something. Specifically. TAKE A VACATION. … Continue reading →

How do I begin? Where do I begin? Another sleep-deprived Monday. I’m drinking my venti (with two add shots) and trying to stimulate any synapses in my brain to do anything remotely resembling a coherent thought. It stops and starts … Continue reading →

So starts another week. Am I ready for this week? No. Why? I wish I could put my finger on the reason for it – if there was any reason other than pure exhaustion. Mentally, I’m in a walking coma. … Continue reading →

This morning, as I sit here at my desk, I find myself acutely aware of my breathing and pulse rate. I’m not sure why. I question a lot of things these days, not the least of which is my sense … Continue reading →

I’m not sure how I am supposed to react to the constant barrage of emotions that I am subjected to. I resist that drama as much as I am able to. It just sucks the life out of my soul … Continue reading →

The mind is a tenuous instrument. At least, that’s the way it feels for me. There are times when I am feeling fine one minute, and something happens that acts like a hand-grenade in my head to blow me off … Continue reading →

On behalf of my gender, I want to offer my sincerest apologies for the difficulty you’ve been having finding someone to have a meaningful relationship with. It pains me to know that someone of your intelligence, quality and grace is … Continue reading →