Author Archives: vftc11

Zero

Posted on February 25, 2019 by vftc11

A milestone today. My birthday. Whoop-dee-fucking-doo. And this is a milestone. I am not going to say what milestone it is – suffice it to say, that as you get older, each one takes on a deeper significance. You start … Continue reading →

Posted in Life | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Quiet

Posted on February 22, 2019 by vftc11

I really don’t like feeling like this. Like I am ready to explode – shatter into a million pieces. My pulse is racing. I feel afraid…unsure of what to say or do next. My head is spinning. I want to … Continue reading →

Posted in Life | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A Vicious Cycle

Posted on February 21, 2019 by vftc11

What is it they say…“The definition of insanity is repeating the same actions and expecting a different result”? If that’s true, then we’re all crazy. LIFE is repeating the same actions (sleep, get up, shower, eat breakfast, go to work/school/wherever, … Continue reading →

Posted in Life, Miscellaneous Musings | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Five

Posted on February 20, 2019 by vftc11

Have you ever felt an exhaustion so complete that you couldn’t imagine going on with living? I’m having that feeling more and more these days. Am I psyching myself out? Probably. How did I get this far off the path? I … Continue reading →

Posted in Life | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

A Change

Posted on February 19, 2019 by vftc11

Six days. Six days to go until I reach a milestone that I am…well… unsure of. We all go through this. Some of us have an easier time of it than others. Why am I feeling like this? It’s unsettling, to put … Continue reading →

Posted in Miscellaneous Musings | Leave a comment

Winter’s Here

Posted on February 11, 2019 by vftc11

I hate the snow. I hate how it disrupts lives, creates confusion, and chills humanity to the bone. When I find that I can’t get around to do even the most simple tasks, I get very frustrated. And depressed. Sure, … Continue reading →

Posted in Life | Tagged , , , , , , | Leave a comment

The Roller Coaster Never Stops

Posted on February 1, 2019 by vftc11

It’s another day where I feel like I want to jump out of my skin. I hate these days. The mental noise is deafening. I want it to STOP. It’s been 11 year this August since I was laid off … Continue reading →

Posted in Miscellaneous Musings | Tagged , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Barely Hanging On

Posted on January 28, 2019 by vftc11

Writing is a habit. I guess it figures, being as I love to read. But, it’s more than a habit – it’s therapy. Something that I’m finding more and more necessary in being able to cope with what’s going on … Continue reading →

Posted in Miscellaneous Musings | Leave a comment

Hello?

Posted on January 22, 2019 by vftc11

Anyone there? I’m never sure… I don’t quite know what I am looking for in writing these posts. I typically have written most everything in long-hand.  I love writing and drawing – anything with a pen or pencil in my hand. … Continue reading →

Posted in Miscellaneous Musings | Leave a comment

I’m Still Here – How Did That Happen?

Posted on January 16, 2019 by vftc11

I’m not sure if anyone reads this (especially since I’ve not written for 2 years…duh…) If so, great. If not, then this is hopefully something I can do to help navigate the ups and downs of life in the world … Continue reading →

Posted in Life | Tagged , , , | Leave a comment