Category Archives: Life

Feelings

Posted on November 10, 2022 by vftc11

Are we still allowed to have them? Do feelings = emotions? Are they supposed to hurt this much? Am I supposed to respect the feelings of others? If so, why? Are we entitled to that same degree of respect from … Continue reading →

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Lost

Posted on March 8, 2019 by vftc11

Friday. One of the more sought-after days of the week. Where did my energy go? My focus? My ability to stay awake without caffeine and other stimulants? Friday mornings – for me – are an overwhelming feeling of wanting to … Continue reading →

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Again

Posted on March 6, 2019 by vftc11

The ongoing internal dialog in my brain is screaming…again. Not an easy night’s sleep last night. Mental serenity is something I am going to find in short supply for the moment. I have these things I want to express in … Continue reading →

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Close To Home

Posted on March 5, 2019 by vftc11

I know I’ve just come through another birthday – a milestone one. We all get older, whether we like it or not. With my ambivalence towards life and my participation in it, I am riding the depression roller coaster on … Continue reading →

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Is Anyone Out There?

Posted on March 1, 2019 by vftc11

I’ve lost my way. People say – Step up. Get involved. Fight the good fight. People assume that we all have endless energy and strength to do all of this stuff (while living a full life, working and providing for … Continue reading →

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Why Am I Doing This?

Posted on February 28, 2019 by vftc11

Good question. There is so much of what I’m calling “dialog” going on in my head at any one time, it’s hard not to have some of it come bursting forth in some fashion. And I want to be able … Continue reading →

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And Here We Are…

Posted on February 27, 2019 by vftc11

I seem to have survived another birthday…another year older. Am I wiser? I’m not aware of any palpable increase in “wisdom.” Quite the contrary – I’m feeling pretty stupid. I’m just tired.  Of everything. Of the world. Of the people. … Continue reading →

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Zero

Posted on February 25, 2019 by vftc11

A milestone today. My birthday. Whoop-dee-fucking-doo. And this is a milestone. I am not going to say what milestone it is – suffice it to say, that as you get older, each one takes on a deeper significance. You start … Continue reading →

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Quiet

Posted on February 22, 2019 by vftc11

I really don’t like feeling like this. Like I am ready to explode – shatter into a million pieces. My pulse is racing. I feel afraid…unsure of what to say or do next. My head is spinning. I want to … Continue reading →

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A Vicious Cycle

Posted on February 21, 2019 by vftc11

What is it they say…“The definition of insanity is repeating the same actions and expecting a different result”? If that’s true, then we’re all crazy. LIFE is repeating the same actions (sleep, get up, shower, eat breakfast, go to work/school/wherever, … Continue reading →

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