It’s not as easy as one might think…

I feel no life in my soul.

Just emptiness.

I’m taking up space and oxygen.

Carbon with no spark.

Darkness and cold.

Much like the winter we now find ourselves in.

Holiday spirit eludes me – again.

The warmth of humanity is an illusion to me.

Out of sight IS out of mind, I guess.

I’ve given up looking for the “why”.

I feel like my reserves have been depleted.

Humanity disappoints me again.  It’s my own damn fault, setting any expectations otherwise.

We’ve not evolved at all.

Has all of this time been a waste?

I’m tired of carrying the weight of advancing the intelligence of those I touch –

Only to be drug back down to the bottom by the lazy and the stupid among us…

How do you cope?

I’m out of ideas.