I am alone

I am alone

nobody cares

everyone is holding their breath

awaiting the coming Armageddon

on Friday

when our country jumps into an abyss

created by complacency, ignorance and greed

we have not elected leaders

we have given over everything

to a bunch of leaches

who have given nothing to this country

only taken

and taken

I feel alone

nobody cares

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What now?

I’m at a loss to find motivation to be on-board for the new year.

I feel like a mental zombie – incapable of emotion.

I don’t want to be this way.

What happened to my positive outlook?

Where is my insight?

Does anyone pay attention anymore?

Does anyone care?

If nobody gives a shit, then why should I?

Where is my humanity?

Where is my gratitude?

The world is coming apart, and I feel powerless to do anything about it.

What now?

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Dump Your Twitter Account

With all of the vitriol that’s come from the Party of Trump, Comrade Donald seems to like to spew out his idiotic comments out to the masses via our previous societal empowerment mistake, Twitter.

We all know how Twitter-dependent our society has become. It allows one to immediately make a statement to the world without the common sense of considering what you are actually saying. And no accountability for the impacts of your posts. Some of these lame individuals have no control over their ability to think before speaking – much like a new puppy peeing on the floor every time it’s owner walks in the door. There’s nothing like the high of posting some morsel of your perceived “wisdom” and having it noticed and responded to by the people that thrive off of that bit of “wisdom” like its the word of God or something.

Stupid.

And WE created it.

Proud of yourself, ‘Murica?

Not that it will do much good, but why not delete your Twitter account? Why give the pompous fool a means to think that anything he utters is worth our time? As of the new year, I am planning on deleting mine.

The reason I say that this will do much good is that our country is addicted to these Tweets. They are weak. This is like asking the country to give up eating french fries. That’s not likely to happen soon.

But it’s a start.

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Things I Need to Remember…

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Hello?

Is anyone out there?

Is anyone listening?

Hello?

Nobody gives a shit.

Why should I?

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Where is the Truth?

They say the Truth shall set you free.

What does that really mean these days?

noun, plural truths [trooth z, trooths]
1. the true or actual state of a matter:   He tried to find out the truth.
2. conformity with fact or reality; verity:   the truth of a statement.
3. a verified or indisputable fact, proposition, principle, or the like:   mathematical truths.
4. the state or character of being true.
5. actuality or actual existence.
6. an obvious or accepted fact; truism; platitude.
7. honesty; integrity; truthfulness.
8. (often initial capital letter) ideal or fundamental reality apart from and transcending perceived experience:   the basic truths of life.
9. agreement with a standard or original.
10. accuracy, as of position or adjustment.
11. Archaic. fidelity or constancy.

Does this even exist anymore?

We’ve become so “informed” as a society so as to make those egotists among us take their slanted perceptions as the reality they then foist on those around them. The false sense of their perceived “intelligence” only feeds the beast inside them, perpetuating the myth that those surrounding them see as clear as the sun in the sky.

You know who I’m talking about.

Thanks to his parents upbringing, we are left to deal with the turd that is Comrade Trump. That is the scourge our planet -and our country – have to deal with.

Remember that parents, next time you have a “teachable moment” with your children.

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Holding Body and Mind Together

It’s not as easy as one might think…

I feel no life in my soul.

Just emptiness.

I’m taking up space and oxygen.

Carbon with no spark.

Darkness and cold.

Much like the winter we now find ourselves in.

Holiday spirit eludes me – again.

The warmth of humanity is an illusion to me.

Out of sight IS out of mind, I guess.

I’ve given up looking for the “why”.

I feel like my reserves have been depleted.

Humanity disappoints me again.  It’s my own damn fault, setting any expectations otherwise.

We’ve not evolved at all.

Has all of this time been a waste?

I’m tired of carrying the weight of advancing the intelligence of those I touch –

Only to be drug back down to the bottom by the lazy and the stupid among us…

How do you cope?

I’m out of ideas.

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Nothingness Speaks Volumes If You Listen

What now?

My mental stasis is making me impatient – which doesn’t make much sense. It’s like it’s been mentally quiet for the past 24 hours. Nothing bad. Nothing good. Just existing.

I am listening to the quiet. It’s easier than I thought it would be. The peace is coming to my heart and mind, slowly but surely. Maintain clarity and focus on the immense gratitude I feel for the gifts I have been granted. I look down and notice the shackles are gone. I am free to follow this feeling where it takes me.

It is tenuous, like untried legs when one stands from sitting in one place too long. Balance is there, but it needs time to fully engage. I need to keep my eyes open to the play being performed in front of me, to contribute my role in it.

Strength is there. Returning gradually to course through my body, though very, very slowly. What’s taking so long?

I am not old. I am not young. I am alive and a living part of the world.

Taking life one step at a time…in a world of uncertainty.

Keep telling myself that I have control.

But am I alone?

Sometimes it really feels like it.

Please…someone talk to me…

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Why?

My sadness is deep today.

Why?

That’s a big question. Answering it gets us in more trouble and grief than any of the others.

How can I get out of this darkness?

Am I on the right path?

Wait a minute…

Maybe…I’m not?

Fuck.

What now?

I think I know what I want to add to my life that may make a difference.

How can I get more people to like me?  How can I bring happiness to larger numbers of people?  Through humor, laughter, music, film, writing…

Is it too late for me?

I’d like to think not.

But, I am old…er.

What makes me relevant?

That’s a big question to answer.  Right now, when I ponder that question, the sadness grows.

What am I worth to the world?

What am I afraid of?  Where will I get the strength?

I can’t seem to focus on anything.  I can’t show any weakness or emotion (fear) lest I set off that depend on me in a panic.  I have to keep it bottled up and hidden away inside me.  It is taking it’s toll on me.  Physically.

How do I move out of this darkness?  It makes me very afraid.  And very, very sad.

It’s hard to be optimistic these days, but its critical that I am.

It’s a fucking exhausting world.

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How Do You Deal With This Sh*t?

I’m sick and tired of everyone telling me what I should feel. Especially since the election.

Fuck you. I’m angry.  This is my way of processing this mess. I’m still allowed freedom…last I checked.

This is not my president and he never will be.

My “anger” (however long it lasts) is my way of dealing with the disappointment I am feeling in how the electorate can be duped by someone who is so inept and unfit to lead our nation. And the populace was conned by the tried-and-true Republican method of winning elections –

  • Telling you what your problems are;
  • Making you afraid of them; and
  • Telling them who’s to blame for them.

Notice I said winning elections. Not presenting a case for continued greatness, growth and prosperity. It is nothing more than “I am right and you are wrong.” No political discourse. Nothing. Totally devoid of humanity. And that is not public service. Not even close.

We’ve traded one “elite” in Washington for another.  The “elite” that has been doing the greatest disservice to this country STILL has their phony-baloney jobs in the house and senate. The logic of this totally escapes me. If a car has a flat tire, do we throw the driver out, put a new person behind the wheel and tell him to keep going?

We’ve lowered the level of our leadership enough to put it in the tiny hands of an orange man-child who has the personality of a walking hemorrhoid.

I voted FOR something, and this was no where close to it.

What did you vote FOR?

God Bless the United States of America.

We’re going to need all the help we can get.

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